At 23 hours I get heart palpitations!

In that moment it clicks, I have expectations

Your oxygen to my bloodstream is toxic

That when conversing I have to change topic


Tendencies of stalking invading my mind walls

Troubling my ego that I need to change my ways

I have to salute you for your esteemed presence

Because in your silence I lose common sense


You walk the dirty streets holding my heart in your hand

Leaving me behind to bleed to death

Returning it right before my last breath

Acting the hero that feeds my soul with your hand


Your attention races my heartbeat I pass out

I’m in a race hoping to win but I want out

Waited for you to return my text until I black-out

You sucked life out of me, I dried out


I, then realized that I’m suffocating

I had to restrain from entertaining





If you can be demolished

For my heart to see the desired

If only I could jump over you

To quench the thirst of my soul

O’ mountains!

I will criticize you

Until you finally change

You will never win

I will not be humiliated by you

O’ things!

You are destroying my walls

They are shaking at your presence

My mind is now my vision

My soul despises your ways.



I will love you Goddess of Africa

Until my soul disappear into air

The whiteness of my teeth will be seen by your roots

The coarseness of my hair will be cherished by you


Oh, I yell you the mother of my heart!


The pompous effect you have on me

The jubilant feeling you bring to my being

The resurrected heart- beat that wakes the neighbors

The patience you have when you are in labour


I prefer you the opus of my canvas!


My lingering wishes painted in pink

With the absorbance of peace

That keeps my heart on its toes

That relents me to destroy my toys


I will hold on to you with my claws!


In the process hope you don’t bleed

I would never wish to see your cheeks wet

The tears will not look good on you

That it will tarnish your appearance


Verses can certainly not do you uprightness!



Lost it and everything went black

Raised my hopes up and got rejected

My capabilities tested but the results were futile

Took deep breaths to allow the air to pass through my chest cavity

Chest so tight letting go of all hope

Wasted time and energy never regained

The nauseating watery mucus flowing into my lips


I’m not disgusting, I just lost!


Lost the key that can open many doors

Lost the value of my rationality

The veins on my forehead pumping hard

Making my eyes very red

Just because I had lost

Not just loss but demeaned

Reminded that it will not rain.



No! It is no okay

To feel this pain

To feel this helpless

To be so moody

It is really not okay

To carry so much with my shoulders

For my heart to be this heavy

To have to pretend that I’m not breaking

For stopping tears not to fall on my cheeks

NO! It is not okay

To wipe falling waters on my face

I want them to dry up on their own

I want to scream my lungs out in agony

I want to question the face of the earth

It will never be okay!

To please my ego because I don’t want the world to laugh

To please my family because they are all I have

To conform to conventional norms because it is my culture

To continue pretending to be strong for others

It can never be okay to live like this!



Every time I try to get closer

I’m pushed out like a snot

Like a saliva spitted on the ground

I slowly die, while people step on me

Others look at me in disgust

Others pass and don’t care

Obviously I mean little to those

Why would you degrade my image?

Into something so worthless and annoying

The silent treatments are unbearable

Like blisters on my toes with tight shoes


It’s easy to love so you’ll think

But I cannot love anyone else

You understand my soul

You hear my lamentation


You have the ability to put my nerves at rest!


Yet in the end you toss me away

You give me a cold shoulder

Knowing that I want a warm one

Why are you doing this to your precious thing?



Staring at the light bulb before I sleep

More confirmation that a small thing can make a difference

I see my keyboard and computer screen

I look up in the ceiling and see pure white

I look around I see all the furniture

I look thoroughly in the air I see mosquitos

Then I switch off the light bulb

And my vision is blurred

Then it clicks in my mind

I switched it on again

And it is clear

A light bulb, a small thing

Lights the room at night

It is so small I can hold it with my hand

The realization of what I’m holding in my hand

I’m holding it with my hand

The answer to my misfortunes

The torch to avoid obstacles as I walk

In the road called life

As small as it is, not a compass!

But a resilient sign

The birth of possibilities in my hand

Paving the road to my destination

Looking at it for a long time

My eyes gets tired

The light is blinding me

When I look around me everything is clear

The life of many possibilities

Such a small thing opening my prophecies

Whole being to react differently

Amazing how such a small thing holds

I see hope

I see targets

I see success

Light bulb yet you are fragile

One mistake I can destroy you

Shatter in pieces and turn into dangerous weapons

That will make me bleed

You are optimistic yet you can be fateful